Lastly, Grace..do you know why your name "Grace" is not after your dialect name like "Lee Chok Eng, Grace"? It's because we wonder if the comma is part of your name. Anyway, it looks a bit weird with the comma right?
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Our Daughter's Name Part II
Well, I did not finish with talking about our daughter's name the other time. Based on my dialect group (Hokkien), Grace dialect name should be - Lee Tok Eng. However, as the sound of "Tok" doesn't sounds too nice in Hokkien (it sounds like chopping), we have decided to use "Chok" instead. So when some people ask on her name...we will say "Oh..you know Goh Chok Tong? The same Chok lor." Well, it is good to associate your name with something good.
Lastly, Grace..do you know why your name "Grace" is not after your dialect name like "Lee Chok Eng, Grace"? It's because we wonder if the comma is part of your name. Anyway, it looks a bit weird with the comma right?
Lastly, Grace..do you know why your name "Grace" is not after your dialect name like "Lee Chok Eng, Grace"? It's because we wonder if the comma is part of your name. Anyway, it looks a bit weird with the comma right?
Saturday, October 13, 2007
Happiness
Almost a decade ago (31 Oct 97 to be precise), I wrote this in my personal journal....
"For years, I've always thought that happiness is something out there, something that we should pursue. But now, I realize that happiness is not without but within us! It's a inner emotion. We're all born with happiness just inside us, ready to be felt by us once we are willing to accept it. Happiness can't be pursued, it can only be felt. We pursue our goals in life but most of the time, after obtaining our goals, do we feel happy? Or do we ask for more? The journey towards achieving our goals is itself happiness. The freedom and freewill we have in pursuing our goals is itself happiness. The strength and courage we have in pursuing these goals is itself happiness. Happiness lies with us, depending on whether we want to embrace it. I wish you happiness!"
Well, I must say that after 10 years, these reflections are still very relevant. As our kids grow, we aged and by notime, we will be old. We will need to enjoy our time with them now and not wait for a tomorrow when we have more time or when we are less tired or when we have more money...
"For years, I've always thought that happiness is something out there, something that we should pursue. But now, I realize that happiness is not without but within us! It's a inner emotion. We're all born with happiness just inside us, ready to be felt by us once we are willing to accept it. Happiness can't be pursued, it can only be felt. We pursue our goals in life but most of the time, after obtaining our goals, do we feel happy? Or do we ask for more? The journey towards achieving our goals is itself happiness. The freedom and freewill we have in pursuing our goals is itself happiness. The strength and courage we have in pursuing these goals is itself happiness. Happiness lies with us, depending on whether we want to embrace it. I wish you happiness!"
Well, I must say that after 10 years, these reflections are still very relevant. As our kids grow, we aged and by notime, we will be old. We will need to enjoy our time with them now and not wait for a tomorrow when we have more time or when we are less tired or when we have more money...
Friday, October 12, 2007
A mother's sadness ....
Today (as in 11 Oct) my parents came picked Grace up at 8:15am. I did not join Grace in my dad's car. Infact, I drove alone to my parents place.
On the journey, I feel sudden sense of saddness and loss. I feel that my girl is drifting away from me ... she will be taken care by grandparents and maid instead of her own mother. Sometimes, come to think of it, it is really irony. In today's society, mother does not have the opportunity to take care of their own children. Coz they would have to work. Only when mothers grow old, they will help to take care of the grandchildren instead ... Are we defying the nature?
Actually nothing much happened when Grace were at grandparents place ... at least nothing worth mentioning ... but when she came home, she cried non-stop. We did all things to pacify her but nothing works. So sad :( She wasn't like that for the past few weeks when I was taking care of her (I have no intention to accuse anyone but when she cried for no reason and I can do nothing to pacify her, I feel both irritated and heartache. Especially when she had not cried so badly for a long time already).
Actually I really have serious thoughts of taking no pay leave to take care of Grace myself. But is that really what I want? Can I get use to the life of homemaker? Will I scold my hubby for not helping with the housework? Will I lose my dignity since I'm not contributing financially anymore? I still have so many doubts myself :(
Sometimes I really wish that I can talked to my hubby on this. But the quality time we spent together is so little. Every night, I will be busy settling Grace and by the time I had settled down hoping to talk to him, he will be either engrossed in surfing Net or watching TV or is already snoring his way to dreamland ...
To have a baby is a big adjustment to me. From month of June when baby arrived, in the first month, I had to adjust myself to be a new mother, bearing with the discomfort caused by the wound and accommodating the confinement lady. By the second month, I had to re-adjust myself to learn to take care of the baby myself. It takes me long to love my own baby. And by the time I had developed strong feeling with the baby, I had to "give up" the role as a mother and go back to work. Relationship with hubby seemed to be affected too .... partly attributed to my short temper .. and maybe he is unaware of how I feel emotionally and could not understand my short temper. He ever mentioned that he does not have his own time since the birth of baby ... that's why I would not want to disturb him when he is reading the blogs and watching TV ...
I wish that things will get better when I start work ... maybe all the sadness is just all in my mind ..
On the journey, I feel sudden sense of saddness and loss. I feel that my girl is drifting away from me ... she will be taken care by grandparents and maid instead of her own mother. Sometimes, come to think of it, it is really irony. In today's society, mother does not have the opportunity to take care of their own children. Coz they would have to work. Only when mothers grow old, they will help to take care of the grandchildren instead ... Are we defying the nature?
Actually nothing much happened when Grace were at grandparents place ... at least nothing worth mentioning ... but when she came home, she cried non-stop. We did all things to pacify her but nothing works. So sad :( She wasn't like that for the past few weeks when I was taking care of her (I have no intention to accuse anyone but when she cried for no reason and I can do nothing to pacify her, I feel both irritated and heartache. Especially when she had not cried so badly for a long time already).
Actually I really have serious thoughts of taking no pay leave to take care of Grace myself. But is that really what I want? Can I get use to the life of homemaker? Will I scold my hubby for not helping with the housework? Will I lose my dignity since I'm not contributing financially anymore? I still have so many doubts myself :(
Sometimes I really wish that I can talked to my hubby on this. But the quality time we spent together is so little. Every night, I will be busy settling Grace and by the time I had settled down hoping to talk to him, he will be either engrossed in surfing Net or watching TV or is already snoring his way to dreamland ...
To have a baby is a big adjustment to me. From month of June when baby arrived, in the first month, I had to adjust myself to be a new mother, bearing with the discomfort caused by the wound and accommodating the confinement lady. By the second month, I had to re-adjust myself to learn to take care of the baby myself. It takes me long to love my own baby. And by the time I had developed strong feeling with the baby, I had to "give up" the role as a mother and go back to work. Relationship with hubby seemed to be affected too .... partly attributed to my short temper .. and maybe he is unaware of how I feel emotionally and could not understand my short temper. He ever mentioned that he does not have his own time since the birth of baby ... that's why I would not want to disturb him when he is reading the blogs and watching TV ...
I wish that things will get better when I start work ... maybe all the sadness is just all in my mind ..
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Preparing to Start Work
Time to prepare to start work. Went shopping for working clothes yesterday coz most of my pre-pregnant clothes could no longer fit in :( I'm one size bigger now. But were glad that I still can find clothes that fit me :P ... Must jiayou to slim down to pre-pregnancy weight before Nini's wedding *jiayou* (lao gong .. pls dun tempt me with all the delicious "extras")
Today, I went to "tidy up" my hair. Initially don't intend to colour my hair coz scared may cause allergy to baby if I pump milk / let her latch on. But its so tempting :P So in the end, I gave in to temptation and got my hair coloured (looks so yellowish now .. so scared may look like Xiaxue's hair colour ... that will be awful -> at least in my eyes) ... but lao gong said ok leh :P
The most worrying issue before starting work is baby Grace. She will have to wake up early and picked up by my parents and spend her day at Toa Payoh. I will go for work and pick her up at around 7:30pm. Alot of adjustments is required. To make sure nothing goes wrong, and to let Grace get use to the new schedule, tomorrow we will be running a simulation. My parents will come and fetch baby at 8:15am. Grace will be bathed at my parents place and spend the day there till 7:30pm. I will fetch her home for night bathing. Hope the simulation will run well ...
Today, I went to "tidy up" my hair. Initially don't intend to colour my hair coz scared may cause allergy to baby if I pump milk / let her latch on. But its so tempting :P So in the end, I gave in to temptation and got my hair coloured (looks so yellowish now .. so scared may look like Xiaxue's hair colour ... that will be awful -> at least in my eyes) ... but lao gong said ok leh :P
The most worrying issue before starting work is baby Grace. She will have to wake up early and picked up by my parents and spend her day at Toa Payoh. I will go for work and pick her up at around 7:30pm. Alot of adjustments is required. To make sure nothing goes wrong, and to let Grace get use to the new schedule, tomorrow we will be running a simulation. My parents will come and fetch baby at 8:15am. Grace will be bathed at my parents place and spend the day there till 7:30pm. I will fetch her home for night bathing. Hope the simulation will run well ...
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
Baby Grace Giggled Loudly
Today, while hubby was teasing Grace by making noises with his tongue, baby Grace was so happy and excited that she giggled so loudly ... We were so surprised that we giggled with her :P We continued to played with her and her giggles continued for at least 30 seconds.
Finally when hubby wanted to captured this "precious" moments with his handphone .. however, once the handphone focus on her, she refused to giggle loudly anymore. She just smiled and babble abit infront of the handphone camera. No matter how we tease her ... she simply refuse to make another giggle noise *disappointed*
Hope to capture her giggle in action next time :P
Grace .. you are so joval .. so adorable my dear grace ... Papa & mama loves you!
Finally when hubby wanted to captured this "precious" moments with his handphone .. however, once the handphone focus on her, she refused to giggle loudly anymore. She just smiled and babble abit infront of the handphone camera. No matter how we tease her ... she simply refuse to make another giggle noise *disappointed*
Hope to capture her giggle in action next time :P
Grace .. you are so joval .. so adorable my dear grace ... Papa & mama loves you!
二人世界 with a price
Today (08 Oct) we left our Baby Grace with my mother and went for spa at Fullerton. When we left baby Grace at my mum's place and bidded good bye to her .. she seemed to know that papa and mama going somewhere without her .. coz she look upset (or are we too sensitive??? :P)
Though we feel guilty to leave her with my mum, but we are also glad that finally we had some time for ourselves (二人世界). I had a wonderful day today! (Thanks lao gong).
We went to Asian Spa for a scrub followed by a massage. After that, we went for the Afternoon High Tea at Courtyard in Fullerton Hotel. It was so relaxing :D (with a high price though :P High Tea expensive, Spa extravagent, Carpark outragous!!! $17!!!).
But nevertheless, we (at least myself), had a wonderful experience!
Though we feel guilty to leave her with my mum, but we are also glad that finally we had some time for ourselves (二人世界). I had a wonderful day today! (Thanks lao gong).
We went to Asian Spa for a scrub followed by a massage. After that, we went for the Afternoon High Tea at Courtyard in Fullerton Hotel. It was so relaxing :D (with a high price though :P High Tea expensive, Spa extravagent, Carpark outragous!!! $17!!!).
But nevertheless, we (at least myself), had a wonderful experience!
.jpg)
Friday, October 5, 2007
One week left ...
Today is Friday. Usually I will be very happy when its Friday coz lao gong will be at home for the next 2 days ... However, today, the feeling is different. Infact I feel sad that its Friday already ... I left with only one week before I start work. Not feeling sad coz I need to go back to work. Instead, I feel sad coz I will not be able to take care of my little Grace 24 by 7 anymore ....
Think i must spend more time playing with Grace .. she is now so adorable :P ... babble, smile (though seldom laugh .. unlike Jovan her little cousin) ... and moves alot ..
I did a handkerchief test on her to check whether she knows how to use her hands ...
Enjoy the movie (Produced by HappyFamilee Entertainment)
Think i must spend more time playing with Grace .. she is now so adorable :P ... babble, smile (though seldom laugh .. unlike Jovan her little cousin) ... and moves alot ..
I did a handkerchief test on her to check whether she knows how to use her hands ...
Enjoy the movie (Produced by HappyFamilee Entertainment)
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
November is an auspicious month!!!
Wow! I will be attending 3 weddings in month of November (Celia - 12 Nov, Biluan - 17 Nov and Nini - 25 Nov) ... It must be an auspicious month .. feel like bringing my dear grace along with me for Celia's wedding dinner ... but doubt that Grace can sit by herself by then ... think not advisable to bring her along :(
Grace ... now you are looking at your own hands .. what's the next new thing that you will learn :P .. Mama look forward :D
Grace ... now you are looking at your own hands .. what's the next new thing that you will learn :P .. Mama look forward :D
Monday, October 1, 2007
Going back to work soon .... *sad*
Time flies .... going back to work in 2 weeks time. Really cannot bear to leave my dear Grace. After I started work, I would not be able to bathe her every morning. I will not be able to hug her and feed her ... will she be in good hands? That's my major concern *worried*
Also, so worried that she may not recognise me and preferred the maid or my mum rather than me ... hope I can leave early enough to spend more time with her ...
Will cherish this 2 precious weeks ...
Grace .. Mama loves you alot!
Also, so worried that she may not recognise me and preferred the maid or my mum rather than me ... hope I can leave early enough to spend more time with her ...
Will cherish this 2 precious weeks ...
Grace .. Mama loves you alot!
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)
